It has been said that we don’t feel the full weight of the burdens we have been bearing until they have been lifted from us. I think there is much truth in this.
Think of the man who hates his job -- the politics, the personalities, the gossip, but mostly, the work itself. It’s really not who he is, what he is meant to be doing, what he has a passion for, the way he’d like to be contributing. But he has his justifications – others are depending on the income, it’s too risky to make a change, he should be lucky to have any job at all. What does he have to complain about, while people out there are dying of cancer? It’s only after he’s made the move that he realizes the extent to which his life force was being depleted, that he realizes the productivity and satisfaction of true vocation. “Getting fired was the best thing that ever happened to me,” he says.
Or think of the person who is trapped – by law, by habit, by fear, by guilt – in a destructive relationship. It can be a relationship that is obviously destructive, as in the case of a relationship with one who is physically or verbally abusive. Or it can be relationship that is less obviously destructive -- as in the case of a relationship with one who doesn’t take responsibility for one’s personal development and leaves others to deal with the consequences, or one who wallows in complaints and negativity but does nothing about it, or one who entitles oneself to be another’s dependent. Whether it’s an obviously destructive or less obviously destructive relationship, it strains and drains its victim. It leaves its victim not enlivened but deadened, not appreciated but disregarded, not confronting reality but avoiding it. But at the same time, it becomes a kind of unquestioned status quo. It’s only when it ends that its victim suddenly finds himself walking a little lighter, finds herself freed for new possibilities. “I can’t believe I lived that way for twenty years,” she says.
Or think of those addicted to some vice – drugs, alcohol, pornography, gambling. They convince themselves that they need it, that they deserve it, that everyone’s got to have some way to get by, some way to feel good. They even trick themselves into thinking that all in all it’s good for them. And for a while, it seems to be. But then, inevitably, the vice begins to gain ground, begins to take over their lives. They begin to lose what’s important to them. They realize they must break the habit or be broken by it. And it’s only after they conquer the addiction that they realize that they’d escaped an eerie and horrifying disease, a kind of slow death by enslavement. “The hardest thing I ever did was to set myself free,” he says.
Yes, we don’t feel the full weight of the burdens we have been bearing until they have been lifted from us. Such was, no doubt, the case with the woman with the hemorrhage from this morning’s gospel lesson. After all, she’d had it for twelve years. At its onset, of course, it must have panicked her. “I’m bleeding. There’s something wrong with me.” As the months progressed her panic probably turned to sorrow and anxiety, “I’m not going to get better. I’m slowly dying.” But then as year gave way to year her hemorrhage became something that she lived with.
Then, one day, she happened to be at the right place at the right time. She was going about her business on the streets of her village when she found herself swept up in a crowd. Naturally, she was curious as to what or who everyone was gathering to see. She quickly discovered from the murmurs all around her that it was Jesus of Nazareth. He had just disembarked from his boat, and the news of his presence spread like wildfire.
By now, to say the least, his reputation preceded him. After all, he had been performing miracles that had never been performed since the dawn of history. She, like everyone else, wanted to catch a glimpse of him, and just as she did, she caught sight of Jairus, the leader of the synagogue. He was in a desperate state. He ran to Jesus and collapsed at his feet. Soon she understood why. “My daughter is at the point of death. Come lay your hands on her,” he begged over and over again.
Jesus, of course, immediately accompanied him. Then suddenly, it clicked. Of course, she had heard of Jesus, everyone had, but maybe she needed to see him to fully and really hear of him. Because it clicked. “If I reach out to him, he will make me well,” she said to herself. So she did, and immediately, her hemorrhage stopped. She felt her body being healed. And then, for the first time in twelve years, she experienced the miraculous gift of good health. All that she had been bearing -- the disease itself, the stress, the loss, the resignation, the hassle, the self-pity, the exhaustion -- it was all gone. She didn’t feel the full weight of the burden she had been bearing until it had been lifted from her.
Yes, there is much truth in this. But why is this? I guess it’s just the nature of bearing burdens. Life has placed them on us. They are heavy. Yet, we need to get where we’re going. There’s no sense complaining about them constantly. There’s no sense being completely defined by them. So with grim resignation, we trudge forward, bearing them as best we can, trying not to think about them. Only after they’re lifted, do we realize their full weight.
And so, maybe we have something to learn from the woman with the hemorrhage. We have more in common with her that you might think. For one thing, we, like her, are bearing burdens. We all are. It’s the nature of human existence. And like her, we’ve heard of Jesus, but have we really heard? Has it clicked? Do we realize that if like her, we reach out to him, he will ease our burdens? He will.
To those seeking true vocation, he has declared that the vocation that transcends and sanctifies all others is to be fishers of men. To those in destructive relationships, he has declared he has come to gather his followers into a fellowship of true unity. To those addicted, he has declared his truth will set them free. If we reach out to him, he will ease every burden we could ever bear. Of course he will! He has conquered sin and death after all. Nothing is beyond his scope.
And for added proof, let us return to the woman with the hemorrhage. Jesus realized when she reached out to him that his power had been tapped and so he stopped and turned around and faced the crowd. “Who touched me?” he asked. The disciples, as usual, thought he was simply acting crazy again. “You see the crowds pressing in on you. How can you say, ‘Who touched me?’” The woman with the hemorrhage, knowing full well he was referring to her, at once became terrified and began to tremble. “Now I’ll be punished,” she thought.” I knew it was too good to be true.”
Like Jairus, she came to Jesus and collapsed at his feet, tried miserably to explain herself, all she’d been bearing, why she had acted as she did. But she quickly discovered that Jesus did not want to punish her, indeed he sought no justification from her at all. “Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace.” He wanted to discover who had reached out to him because he wanted to reach back. He wanted to discover who had reached out to him merely to acknowledge her, to know her, to affirm her.
Jesus wants us to reach out to him precisely because in reaching back he can ease our burdens! Such is his nature. Such is his power. Such is his love. After all, is it not his express promise, “Come to me, all you that are wearing and are carrying heavy burdens, and I will give you rest….For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” For that he lived, and for that he died. Amen.