A new semester has begun at the college where I teach. Last week in class I made mention of the fact that the Bible is filled with paradoxes - with contradictions that must be maintained as true. After twenty years of teaching, I am pretty good at reading “student body language.” When I say something they are resistant to, they cross their arms in front of the chests. They crossed their arms in front of their chests. “But you must have experienced paradoxes before. Perhaps you have a love/hate relationship with your dog,” I ventured. Their arms remained crossed in front of their chests.” “Think of yourselves then,” I persisted. “We are every one of us paradoxical beings. We are every one of us hotbeds of contradictions. We are good, and we are bad. We are profound, and we are petty. We are altruistic, and we are selfish. We are kind, and we are mean spirited. We are believing, and we are skeptical.” They uncrossed their arms in front of their chests. Because it’s true, we are every one of us paradoxical beings.
This is nowhere better seen than in Jacob from our Old Testament Lesson. Jacob was very bad. And he was very good. In his early years his bad side had the upper hand. With the possible exception of Cain, Jacob fell prey to the worst case of sibling rivalry in human history. It was present from the moment of his birth. He was a twin. His brother Esau was born first. Jacob came out after him grasping Esau’s heel, as if to pull him back in and switch positions. But his mother’s anatomy did not allow for that, so Esau beat him out. Jacob was then rightly named - for Jacob means the heel grasper.
Why did Jacob want to beat his brother out of the womb? Because the older brother was the winner who took all. He was the future head of the family. He inherited all the money, all the land, all the property -- everything.
And to add injury to insult, Jacob was the smart one. It might be going too far to describe Esau as a dim bulb, but he certainly wasn’t the brightest. He was your average run of the mill man’s man - an outdoors man and a hunter. You’d never describe him as subtle or sophisticated. Under these circumstances, who wouldn’t have a serious case of sibling rivalry?
And he acted on it. He hatched a plan to supplant his brother. In order to do so he needed to steal two things: his brother’s birthright and the paternal blessing that conferred it. Jacob had all the subtlety and sophistication his brother lacked. Add to that that getting what you want is a great motivator; it’s the mother of invention. And those who are standing in the way of you getting what you want don’t see you coming. That’s why they are so easy to manipulate, which is what happened to Esau. Jacob found his brother at a moment of weakness and tricked him into trading his birthright. Then, posing as his Esau, Jacob tricked his father out of his paternal blessing.
One problem though when your bad side has the upper hand is that it makes you, to say the least, unpopular. This goes without saying. You can’t be a total jerk and expect to be liked. Esau was so furious with Jacob that he sought to murder him, and Jacob was forced to flee for his life.
He landed at his Uncle Laban’s. It’s been said you will never understand the damage you’ve done to someone until the same thing is done to you. This is true enough. Old Uncle Laban did to Jacob just what Jacob had done to Esau - He manipulated him and tricked him. He cheated him and robbed him.
And this is when Jacob’s good side began to have the upper hand. He understood now the damage he had done. He understood now the meaning of remorse and regret. And he understood now there was only one way to right the wrong. He had to face his problems rather than run from them. He had to confront Esau, beg his forgiveness and do what he could to make amends. Proof of the truth of Herman Melville’s words -- Life is a voyage that is homeward bound.
Jacob understood too that he had to right the wrong with God. God understood this as well, and he appeared to Jacob in the form of an angel. Jacob wrestled with him the night long, struggling desperately to wrench from him a true blessing -- not like the blessing he stole -- but a true blessing that would legitimate him in the eyes of God. And just when he could struggle no more -- when his last strength was drained from him, when there was nothing more than his anguished need and vulnerability, God blessed him. And in so doing, God renamed him, renamed him Israel. He was no longer Jacob the heal grasper. He was Israel, he who struggled with God and prevailed.
But why? Why did God rename him? Why was is so important for God to rename him at that moment? It is because in the Bible your name captured your essential identity. In our time, we can’t relate to that much. We largely choose names that are popular, or that gibe with our ethnicity, or in remembrance of a loved one. But in the Bible your name captured your essential identity. Jacob’s goodness had the upper hand, so he was renamed to reflect that.
As a matter of fact, Jesus did as much in this morning’s gospel lesson. Peter had originally been named Simon. Jesus had gathered Simon and the other disciples around him, and he began to question them. He wanted to see if they knew who he really was. Simon knew. He knew that Jesus was the Messiah and the Son of God. For all he warts and freckles, and he had plenty of them, he knew. His goodness had the upper hand, so Jesus renamed him. No longer will you be named Simon, he declared. I rename you Petros, for you are the rock on which I will build my church.
There is a lesson to be learned in all this. When our bad side has the upper hand we retain our old names. But when our good side has the upper hand, we may rightly be renamed Christians. That name is not ours automatically, heedless of whether our goodness or our badness has the upper hand. As Christ himself warned, "Not everyone who says to Me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of my Father." We may rightly be renamed Christains when we wrestle with the paradox. But it’s worth the struggle, for if anyone is in Christ, there is a new creation. Amen.