By Rebecca Clancy
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May 18, 2020
I recently came across a link entitled, “The Top Five Human Fears.” “What a time waster all these links are,” I said to myself disdainfully. No doubt you come across them too -- these links with their teaser titles: “This one will make you cry.” “This one will make you laugh.” “This one will surprise you.” “Open to burn belly fat.” “Amazing befores and afters.” “Celebrities Unretouched.” These links seem to exist to prey upon our tendency to procrastinate. Who of us would not rather click a link than pay bills, fold laundry, or clean the cat litter box? So there it was. “The Top Five Human Fears.” “Sorry, Link!” I said to myself confidently, “I am not susceptible to the allure of your charms.” A few moments later I began wondering if I were a fearful person. “No, of course not,” I told myself. “Just the opposite, I am a brave person… But what if my bravery is an over compensation for my fear?” I continued to ruminate. “No of course not,” I told myself again. “I am a really and truly a brave person. I have high self-esteem and self-confidence, and I am a person of conviction. These are the building blocks of bravery, so I am definitely not a fearful person pretending to be brave…. But I bet that’s what all the fearful people pretending to be brave say to themselves,” I began to worry. “Best to dig a bit deeper,” I cajoled myself. “Best to click the link to see if I resonated with what was fearful to the general run of humanity, of which I am a member.” Suffice it to say, in this way I seduced myself into clicking the link. When I saw the top five human fears, however, I no longer tossed over in my mind whether I was a brave or fearful person. That question shot out of my head like a sent croquet ball. “How trivial people are in their fears,” was the thought that now vexed me. Procrastination had taken full hold. At any rate, see if you agree with me about the triviality of people’s fears. Here is the list: number 5: the dark; number 4: spiders; number 3: heights; number 2: public speaking; and number 1: flying. “This is what people are fearful of?” I thought, chagrined. “How banal! How bland! How stereotypical!” What about the things that are really fearful; fearful, say, at an existential level? What about loneliness? Estrangement? Alienation? Absurdity? Insanity? Futility? Dread? Despair? What about failure? Rejection? Loss? Or the mother lode of them all: What about death? Or set aside the existential level. These fears are but abstractions. What about things that are fearful at a concrete level? Take world events, for instance. What about violence? The gun violence that massacres innocence all across our country, or the political violence that rages across the Middle East? What about the Leviathan we’ve wrought out of the created order whose avenging devastation is here to stay? What about the Goliath powers and principalities that subjugate us every way we turn? What about all the horrors of history that rehearse the horrors of the future? Nothing that was really fearful made the list. “Where was I when the poll was taken?” I fumed. “I would have given them an earful about fearful.” As I said, procrastination had taken full hold. I then began to wonder why people had answered so trivially. Spiders? The dark? Come on. It suddenly struck me that they did it on purpose. They delivered the party line, provided the pat answers, took the easy out, deliberately. Beneath the surface, then, their true fear could be seen to emerge. They feared separating themselves from the herd. Not long ago I clicked on another link. It was entitled, “Deathbed regrets.” The number one deathbed regret was that people had not simply lived their own lives. They lived by someone else’s expectations, lived according to someone else’s “should.” Accordingly, they lived, and they died, regretful and unfulfilled. Of course they did. They lived someone else’s life. Why did they? Why this fear of separating from the herd? There are many reasons to fear separating from the herd. The herd depends for its existence upon sameness – upon conventionality and conformity. The herd then does not like it when someone differentiates from it. It then criticizes. It judges. It ridicules. It rejects. And say you screw your courage to the sticking place and say to heck with the herd. I will live by my own expectations, according to my own should. I will live my own life. Well that’s just the beginning. Then you have to blaze your own trail, and trails are hard to blaze. They are risky. They are scary. They are uncertain. So there’s a certain safety in the herd. It may be stifling. It may be crippling. It may be dull, but this is the price to be paid for safety. I guess the bottom line is that those who answered so trivially, in that very triviality, indirectly gave expression to a fear that is anything but trivial – the fear of their own individuality. But what does any of this have to do with us as Christians? Plenty, for this herd mentality tends to be imported into religion. The herd mentality asserts that the highest expression of religion is to look alike, to think alike, to judge alike, to be of a social class, to share the same political enemies, to harbor the same prejudices, to employ the same jargon, and to erect the same facade. And heaven help you if you try to separate from this herd. As I said, the herd does not like it doesn’t like it when you differentiate from it. In this case the herd, often through the appropriate committee, will confront you and demand that you toe the line, and if you don’t, it will shun you in one way or another. The Bible, for its part, in fact is not supportive of the herd. Believe it or not, one of the mightiest theological choruses that runs throughout the Bible is one that sounds against the herd. Take the immortal words of the prophet Jeremiah, “Behold, the days are coming, declares the Lord, when I will make a new covenant with the house of Israel and the house of Judah…..I will put my law within them, and I will write it on their hearts…And I will be their God, and they shall be my people….For I will forgive their iniquity, and I will remember their sin no more.” Most people know these words, but know little of their context. The nation of Israel was no longer on its last legs. It had been destroyed. And I mean destroyed - with unimaginable violence and decisive permanence. That nation in fact would not be rebuilt until 1948. It fell to the armies of Babylon. The few who survived were deeply traumatized. Any destruction would have been enough, but this was the destruction of God’s nation. Jeremiah was not deeply traumatized. For him the God’s nation had to go. It had become a herd. Self-perpetuating uniformity. Us against them. God’s people aren’t coterminous with a nation, Jeremiah declared. Nor are they coterminous with a race or ethnicity. God’s people are individuals possessed of God’s heart, regardless of nation or ethnicity or race. Paul has his own immortal words, “There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free, there is no male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.” Again you know the words, but probably not their context. Christianity was at first housed within the close confines of Judaism, so-called Jewish Christianity. The Gentiles wanted in, but the establishment said no. They weren’t part of the herd. They must become Jews first, circumcise themselves and bind themselves to the Law of Moses, before they could come in. So Paul declared that this Jewish Christianity had to go. God’s people were individuals who had heard the upward call of Jesus Christ and believed in his saving power. What the Bible is saying is that God’s people should and must be a various assortment of diverse individuals: individuals with unique personalities and interests, unique histories and stories, unique strengths and weaknesses, unique successes and failures. They need share only one thing in common. They must seek as their highest hope and aspiration to glorify the God of Jesus Christ. Jesus once told a parable. Three servants were a different number of talents, each according to his merit. One was given five, one two, and one just a single talent. The servant with one talent thought he didn’t rate much as an individual. So he hid what he was given in the dirt. This landed him in deep trouble. There is a negative lesson, here, obviously, it takes the form of a warning. But there is a positive lesson as well: It is this: You do rate much as an individual. You are important as that individual. You are worthy as that individual. You are needed as that individual. You can fill your role in God’s world as that individual. So love yourself and respect yourself as much as God loves and respects you. Expect as much from yourself as God expects of you. And this requires honesty. And this requires courage. And this requires faith. And this requires action away from the herd. You know, I think I will create my own link. It will be entitled, “Click here for the secret to life.” When it opens there will be but six words: “For God’s sake, just be yourself.” Amen.