Growing up, I always had the feeling that I didn’t quite fit in. I am sure I am not the only kid who felt that way. In fact, I bet most people felt that as kids that there was something that set them apart. It might have been a learning disability. It might have been an atypical body size. It might have been a lower standard of living, or a higher one for that matter. It might have been what we today call a non-traditional family. In my case it was my dad. He was not like the other dads. And that’s the understatement of the century.
I was raised in the 1960’s, and my dad had entered the struggle for social justice. You might think that since it was the 60's, this meant he had a lot of company, but he didn’t. None that I could see at least. This was because we lived in Du Page County, one of the most conservative counties in the state.
And there’s no way to enter the struggle for justice in a subtle and unobtrusive way. When my dad's church preached a “gospel” of racism, he denounced it publicly, quit the church, and founded his own. That made the newspaper. And then there was the peace rally that he orchestrated at Elmhurst College where he was a professor of theology. At least that was conducted on a relatively secluded campus. I believe that only made the college newspaper. And then there was his march to end segregated housing. This received the most publicity. How could it not? We marched all over the town. Yes, we. My whole family marched, along with lots of folks who arrived in buses. Not surprisingly, the event that received the most publicity was the least well received. Even my dad was surprised at the amount of flak he took for it. But as a ten-year-old, I just wished that I could have a normal dad so I could fit in.
Shortly after the march, I was at a friend’s house playing. My friend’s father came home from work, noticed I was there, and began railing to his wife against my dad. “What’s she doing here? What will the neighbors think, that I am some kind of supporter of her father? He’s trying to turn this whole city into a ghetto. I’d like to see him run out of town on a rail. And his daughter is never to set foot on this property again.”
Imagine my shame and humiliation and devastation. I left immediately out the back door and ran all the way home, choking back the sobs. When I saw my dad, the flood gates opened wide. Out gushed what my friend’s father had said. I was arrested by my father's response. He hardly seemed to care. “I wouldn’t give it too much attention, Becca. It sounds like he doesn’t have much of a shrine, that’s all.” “What’s a shrine?” I asked, now distracted from my grief. “It’s the place within us where the holy dwells,” he said.
I didn’t take much from his words. My dad was always saying things that were mysterious to me, quoting and alluding six ways to Sunday. I later learned that his words were taken from Ralph Waldo Emerson. My takeaway at the time however, was that it was bad thing if you didn’t have "much of a shrine."
Some days later we were driving on the highway. My dad wasn't the best driver in the world. He cut someone off, and that someone laid on the horn. I glanced at my dad knowingly and said with what I hoped would be deemed wisdom beyond my years, "That driver doesn’t have much of a shrine.” “I wouldn’t be too sure about that, Becca,” my dad said. My dad was trying subtly to dissuade me from taking this "shrine line," but it was too late. Pandora’s Box was open, and the spirits were abroad.
Soon thereafter, I was at school, when my arch-nemesis Marla Stick made fun of my new pantsuit. “Your problem, Martha, is that you haven't much of a shrine,” I declared. “Well neither do you!” she retorted. That really stung. Sure, I had no idea what I was talking about, but she even less so. My arch-nemesis Marla Strick was always one-upping me.
It wasn’t until many years later, after my father died, that, reminiscing, I recalled the shrine. I began to reflect about it. My only thought as a child was to use it as a weapon. I guess that reflects that the human tendency to see another's sin more clearly than our own is established early.
My father had told me that a shrine is the place within us where the holy dwells, but what was the shrine, really?
The apostle Paul would have understood all about the shrine. In fact, there's little doubt that it was his theology that in one way or another inspired Ralph Waldo Emerson. This is clear from his letter to the churches of Galatia. Paul wrote his letter to the churches of Galatia because he was angry at them. And Paul was not one to mask his anger. He has never been accused of passive aggression.
Paul had founded the churches of Galatia himself. He did it the same way he founded all his churches, by preaching the gospel. We all know the gospel, though we may have our own variations on the theme. Paul's was this: Believe in Jesus Christ. Receive His Holy Spirit. Through his Holy Spirit live by his love.
But no sooner had he departed from the churches of Galatia to found other churches, than some kind of a delegation followed in his wake. The delegation told the churches of Galatia that the gospel Paul preached was faulty. Believe in Jesus Christ. Receive his Holy Spirit? Through his Holy Spirit live by his love? What kind of gospel was this? This was way too loosey goosey, the delegation insisted.
Paul was a Pharisee, after all. He of all people should know the import of the religious law. The delegation then, literally, laid down the law. It declared that the loosey goosey stuff was well and good, but that no one would be allowed to enter the church without binding themselves to the religious law. So the churches of Galatia bound themselves to the religious law. Starting with circumcision.
This is what caused Paul's anger. It was not so much the personal affront. It was that the delegation was dead wrong. Yes, Paul was a Pharisee. He knew the import of the religious law. The import of the religious law was legalism. It was rules. It was regulations. It was technicalities. It was standards. It was status quo.
What was this next to revolutionary freedom from the religious law made possible by Christ's indwelling love? “I am in the anguish of childbirth till Christ is formed in you," Paul entreated them, "till Christ is formed in you." Paul would have understood all about the shrine, all about the place within us where the holy dwells. It is Christ formed in us.
This is why it is indeed a bad thing not to have "much of a shrine." That much I got right all those years ago. And this is why it is a good thing to have much of a shrine. For when Christ is formed in us, it prevents us from succumbing to the evil all around us and, yes, within us; it keeps us sure and steady; it gives us right perspective for the daily task of living; it endows us with courage and strength to take a stand for truth; it gives us in this dark world bright hope for God's future.
And it sets us apart in ways that our children may not appreciate when they're ten, but that they will when they come to maturity. I’m so glad now that my dad was not like the other dads. Amen.