I spoke over the summer about my late friend Dean. My dad was his good and great friend for over fifty years, and when my dad died, I stood in for my dad as best as I could until Dean’s death this past spring.
Dean was no slouch intellectually. He earned an undergraduate degree in theology from Northwestern University and graduate degrees in theology from Yale University. So Dean knew his theology, but his true gift was as a wordsmith. He ended up in the perfect job. He was an editor at the theological journal
The Christian Century , a position he held for sixty years.
Dean was not someone you would be keen to play Scrabble with, unless you liked to lose. My dad and I could hold our own with him, but when the Scrabble game came out at Thanksgiving, everyone else left the room.
1972 may not seem like a significant year for you, but it is in my family. 1972 is the year the game Boggle came out. Dean brought Boggle to Thanksgiving that year. Boggle allowed him to up his game, because in Scrabble you are limited to 7 letters. In Boggle your letters are unlimited. You can spell as long a word as you can.
A few months before he died, Dean was in a rehabilitation facility, and we were playing Boggle in the Recreation Room. A man asked if he could join us. “You really don’t want to do that,” I said. “This man may look innocuous, but he is not. He is as deadly as a shark. Trust me.” “I’ll take my chances,” he said, with naïve confidence.
The first word Dean spelled was Anfectung. “Nice one!” I said. “Wait a minute,” the man said. “What in the world is Anfectung?” It sounds foreign. “It’s German,” I said, “but it passed into English untranslated so in my opinion he gets credit.” “But what is it?” He persisted. “It’s when it feels like Satan is pummeling you,” I said. Dean continued, “The word was made famous by Martin Luther. It refers to times of spiritual affliction and trial and terror and despair.” At that point the man said he was throwing in the towel. “I told you he was deadly as a shark,” I called out after him.
Anfectung. I guess it’s an insider’s word. But it’s not an insider’s experience. It’s when life hits us; and hits us hard. It’s when we feel crushed under our burdens. It’s when we feel we can’t go on. It’s when we lose loved ones. It’s when we lose jobs. It’s when we develop health problems. It’s when we have accidents. It’s when we find ourselves mired in dysfunction relationships. It’s when we find ourselves in financial trouble. It’s when we learn we have been betrayed. It’s when we wake up in the middle of the night awash with existential dread -- thinking of all the bad things we’ve done; thinking of all the suffering and injustice and misery and violence have wracked existence. It’s when we fear death.
At any rate, the Bible gets Antectung. The Bible is not superficial. It doesn’t present us with fake people living fake lives. It presents us with real people with real lives living real lives. And this means it presents us with Anfectung.
Think about Job. The thing about Job is that he was a really good person. He had no bad karma. We tend to have this idea that if you’re a really good person, life will reward you. That’s the way it should be anyway. Such was not the case with Job. His servants were murdered and his livestock stolen when marauders fell upon them. Directly thereafter, he lost all ten of his children when their house collapsed on them. But that was not the end for Job. He fell victim to a horrendous wasting disease that covered him with weeping sores. To make matters even worse, his friends turned on him and said he really must not have been a good person all along, for God to visit all these afflictions upon him. “Let the day perish in which I was born! Why did I not die at birth, come forth from the womb and expire?” He cried out.
And then there is Paul. Truth be told, he was not as good a person as Job. In his early years he persecuted the nascent church, presiding proudly over the stoning of Stephan. But he turned his life around after he encountered the risen Christ along the road to Damascus. I guess it’s truer to say that Christ turned his life around. At any rate, he put his past behind him. And that’s when his troubles began. He was whipped, beaten with rods, stoned, jailed, and eventually executed. And Job and Paul aren’t isolated examples. God himself demanded that Abraham sacrifice his beloved son. Imagine how you’d feel in the wake of that demand.
David’s beloved son was murdered by his own general -- that after David had begged his general to protect him. Jeremiah was persecuted non stop over the course of fifty years. And what about Jesus for crying out loud? The Son of God. The one person in all of history who should have been loved and respected and honored and obeyed. The one person in all history who actually deserved to be worshiped. No, the Bible gets Anfectung.
And speaking of Jesus, in the morning’s gospel lesson, his death lay squarely before him. He, however, was more concerned for his disciples than himself. I suppose we can relate to this. As a parent a large part of the reason I hold life so dear is for the sake of my children. At least for now, they need me. I am irreplaceable to them. I couldn’t bear them to grieve my loss then navigate life without me. So Jesus tried one last time to do what he could for his disciples. He gave them twin assurances, first bad news and then good. The bad news: You will have tribulations. They come with life. You will have tribulations. But then the good news. I have already conquered the world. I have already conquered the world.
And on his cross he experienced the full gamut of Anfectung. Betrayal. Desertion. Injustice. Pain. Cruelty. Suffering. Loneliness. Desolation. And in his resurrection he overcame them for our sake, so that we can too, starting now and stretching into eternity. He has already conquered the world.
And he continued. When we believe this. When we really believe it -- in our hearts and in our minds and in our souls, then amidst our tribulation we will experience the peace that passes understanding.
Everyone should read C.S. Lewis. He is perhaps the greatest Christian apologist of the twentieth century. He was writing a letter to a dear friend who was dying a death that was particularly painful. Not surprisingly she experienced Anfectung. This is what Lewis wrote to her:
“Pain is terrible, but surely you need not have fear as well? Can you not see death as the friend and deliverer? It means stripping off that body which is tormenting you: like taking off a hair shirt or getting out of a dungeon. What is there to be afraid of? …. Has this world been so kind to you that you should leave it with regret? There are better things ahead than any we leave behind. Remember, though we struggle against things because we are afraid of them, it is the other way round—we get afraid because we struggle. Are you struggling, resisting? Don’t you think Our Lord says to you ‘Peace, child, peace. Relax. Let go. Underneath are the everlasting arms. Let go, I will catch you. Do you trust me so little?’"
Friends in Christ, do not trust him so little. Trust him much. Amen.
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