“Peter said to Jesus, 'Even though I must die with you, I will not deny you.’ And so said all the disciples.”
But of course they did deny him. The disciples’ promises to Jesus turned out to be nothing more than tough talk - spoken in the abstract; spoken before the going had gotten rough. Jesus, after all, had not even been arrested yet. The disciples had no inkling that within a day, Jesus would be hanging from a cross. And so, they were full of tough talk. But when the going got rough, they denied him; all of them.
But Jesus was not abandoned entirely. There was another disciple who never left his side. Her name was Mary Magdalene. She stood by him through thick and thin. We know so little of the disciples, really, much less than we would like to know. Why did Mary Magdalene stand by Jesus? Unfortunately, the gospels don’t tell us.
They do tell us that when Mary Magdalene was in a state of spiritual and psychological torment, Jesus healed her. They do tell us that thereafter she followed him. They do tell us that she stood at the foot of his cross and was the first to visit his tomb. But they don’t tell us why. We can only but imagine.
For my part, I imagine the obvious. I imagine she stood by Jesus because she loved him. She loved him as people love their friends. She loved him as people love their deliverers. She loved him as people love their leaders. She loved him as people love their heroes. She loved him as people love their God. And she loved him with an intensity and passion that was unique to her temperament.
Elizabeth Barrett Browning once wrote: "I love thee freely, as men strive for Right; I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise…I love thee with the breath, smiles, tears, of all my life! And, if God choose, I shall but love thee better after death."
This is how I imagine Mary Magdalene loved Jesus. It’s no wonder, really, that she stood by him.
While the twelve were hunkered down in hiding, Mary Magdalene stood at the foot of Jesus’ cross. She was with him in his final agony as he cried out his last words to his father and died. And even after his death, she stood by him.
Joseph of Arimathea and Nicodemus are credited with Jesus’ entombment. They were brave men, and they did what they could for him in the time they had, but time was short. Jesus died on Friday afternoon, and it was necessary that he be entombed before nightfall, for the next day was the Sabbath, a day of rest. Their efforts could only have been harried and makeshift. And so, in the predawn of the day that followed the Sabbath, Mary Magdalene made her way to his tomb to see that Jesus was properly laid to rest.
Her shock and her grief must have been overwhelming. It would have been cold comfort to dress Jesus’ corpse, but cold comfort is better than no comfort at all. It was all she had left of him. When he died her love for him did not die too. Any of us who has lost a loved one knows this.
And so Mary Magdalene arrived at Jesus’ tomb. When she did, to her consternation she discovered that the stone had been rolled away and that his body was missing. She drew the likely kinds of conclusions. Someone had moved his body. It was not Jesus’ tomb, after all; it was Joseph of Arimathea’s. Some regulation was probably in play, or worse, perhaps someone had stolen the body. Jesus had been a controversial figure, after all. His enemies could yet be hatching all kinds of twisted designs. At any rate, his missing body only compounded her grief.
She ran to tell the disciples, but they turned out to be of little help. They rushed to the tomb, confirmed her story, but what were they to do about it? After all, in the last analysis it was only a missing corpse. They returned home. But Mary couldn’t bring herself to leave. Where did she have to go? After a time she looked again in the tomb, and this time she saw two angels. “Woman, why are you weeping?” they asked her. It didn’t add up, of course but with all that she had been through, she was hardly in a position to put two and two together.
But then, Jesus himself confronted her and asked the same question, “Woman why are you weeping?” By now it definitely should have begun to add up. She loved Jesus, dare I venture, more than any of his other disciples. She had been seeking after him. He now stood directly before her. But she mistook him for a gardener. Jesus finally put an end to her confusion. “Mary!” he cried. And at last she recognized him.
But how could it be that she did not recognize him? How could it possibly be? The answer is that she had been seeking after a dead man. In fact, all the gospel writers make plain that she had been seeking after a dead man. “Why do you seek the living among the dead?” declares the gospel of Luke. “I know that you are looking for the Jesus who was crucified,” declares the gospel of Matthew.
And the reason that the gospel writers make this plain is that they knew their readers would be prone to make the same error, that we ourselves would be prone to make the same error. Do we not ourselves seek after a dead man and so not recognize him? Do we not seek after a man who lived in Palestine some 2,000 years ago - a great man, an inspiring man, a man we admire more than any other and one we seek to emulate - a healer, a teacher, a prophet, who sacrificed his life for his cause? But by the same token, a man of history, not a man of the present day.
Or worse, do we not seek after a man who has been embalmed in the rites and rituals of the church? But what a tragic error this is! What the gospel writers want to make plain is that Jesus is not a dead man. If we seek after a dead man we will not recognize him. What the gospel writers want to make plain is that Jesus is alive, and eternally alive.
This means we should seek him where he lives – and where he told us he would be - among those who struggle for justice, those who are persecuted for righteousness, those who sacrifice for the cause of love; among the outcast, the destitute, the lost, and the sorrowful. And we should seek him knowing that his cause has proved to be victorious, and our strivings in his name are tinged with that victory. And when we recognize him, again by his word, we will have found the way, the truth, and the light. Amen.